The Lord is not only speaking to you. He is speaking to those around you. It would be a good idea to listen well.
One of the more profound things I have read:
A man’s suffering is similar to the behavior of gas. If a certain quantity of gas is pumped into a chamber, it will fill the chamber completely and evenly, no matter how big the chamber. Thus suffering completely fills the human soul and conscious mind, no matter whether suffering is great or little. Therefore the “size” of human suffering is absolutely relative.
The disorder must be beautiful. It is what makes our world unpredictable and free. We are free to make decisions, travel on seemingly random trajectories, create “abstractly,” and the direction of the universe does not seem to be fixed. Instead, it appears to us defined by our decisions, thoughtful and otherwise. It is loose and forgiving enough to accept our missteps and meandering. This is grace – that we can choose and determine outcome after outcome. And the whole is greater than the sum of its parts. It all appears to be heading somewhere and it is ours to inhabit. And yet, there seems to be a force beyond forces, that draws us and presses on us, and is ours to discover.
Dying to ourselves means letting God take up the fight for us.